no fair! I never get any comments anymore. :C I guess I'll just have to go off and delete it, eh?

oh, btw, update for all you HOPELESS PEOPLE who go all ROMANTIC FOR ME: just friends for now, may evolve into something later, but we (more specifically me) are waiting until we grow up a little bit. more mature, more in tune with knowing what we want. (hey, I know what I want [or at least I think I do] but can it ever work for me? noooo....) meh, whatever. anne, he still thinks you're crazy weird.

fwah, so there's a fireside tonite at the church (lousy people don't believe in casual dress around here, bah!) and then there's a party at zack's house which SUPPOSEDLY I'm not even going to be allowed to stay at after 11. cursed parents. oh well. I'll be hanging out with them crazy people from 9ish to 11ish. I'll stay there as long as I can, seeing as my parents don't trust me enough, I think I'll give 'em a scare to kick off the new year. and maybe a grounding. (my parent's don't ground, so disregard that.) meh, but what do I know! maybe I'll just be a good girl and skip it all together. naw, zackum wouldn't like that. although, I don't think my parents will be alone in the ruling (not letting their kids drive when there's drunks and who knows what else out there on the roads).

so those were some pretty big paragraphs for my blog. I think I agree with liana, these are becoming way to diary based. ah well. I'm sure you people appriciate SOME snippits about it.

.... right?

meh. whatever, I'm off to.... do something.... ?

~Rayla

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78th post

oooooh! I had a flight dream the other day! I was so happy! the first one ever! I was like, a bird! ..... regardless, I was crashing into trees and the ground sometimes, but hey! I flew! that's all I care about. ha!

boring bum. lazy, unmotivated, isolated...

"I check people's blogs multiple times a day," he says. "I'm just too lazy to update it." tcha, no kidding! and he's reading this right now and LAUGHING cuz he KNOWS it's TRUE! HA!

and he has yet to play that owed game of isketch with me. HA! like he remembered. tch!

meh.

dance tomorrow... and the sweetness in my life will be there! if anyone can't guess what that is. hmm. I dunno, 'e claims 'e hasn't been ta any of th' dance afore, and dancin' with some 'o them luverly ladies is sumthin' he claims to need be doin', more fer hisself than the girlies. Sum a' us is hopin' 'e asks a certin' someone, eh?

I'ma goin' piratey, mateys! even tho' the day fer talkin' as one is long past, eh!

Dunno where that came from. I could talk mole instead, burr oi!

HA! dunno. don't ask. fwah, going now. enough madness I think. tcha!

~Rayla

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MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!

yes, happy holidays! fwah.

so saturday went relatively well, I think. hmm. I heard him say it too. "I think this first date was a success, don't you?" heh. yeah. I'll bet the second one'll be just as good. if we get that far... (shut up!)

fwah. so he came to my house 2:25 - 2:35 (or something) left for kendall 10 and watched eragon. nothing big, eh? (was a pretty good movie, btw. streamline, but good.) went to oberweis, had ice cream w/ mike & liana (the double for the date) and then drove me home. here's the kink. my parents insisted that he stay and take part in "holiday traditions" (frosting cookies). so he stayed and helped out a bit with that (he didn't even eat/take home his own cookies! what's up with that?) and then we sat down on the couch and popped in another movie. A Wonderful Life, I think. but we left 20 minutes into it (it was almost 7). so jokingly he was like, "you know, you could come home with me and meet 2 of my sisters, 2 of my brothers and a sis-in-law!" halfly wanting to spend more time with him and halfly to meet part of his family, I tagged along.

we got to his house to find the family watching Finding Neverland, at, of course, the part where I ALWAYS cry. always. so we're sitting there, watching this movie and 5 of the 8 in the room are crying (including me) and stuart's like "I must be heartless, I'm not crying. come to think of it, I never cry during movies." and I'm just like "shut up and let me cry!" he just laughed and tryed to keep poking me. meh. so then it's over and I'm like "hmm, I should probably go home" so then he and his bro drove me home (the other car was in use, and stuart wasn't about to use his brother's car. nice car. oh, anyways.) which was a little weird, but not too bad.

so yeah, in a nutshell, was much nice. we haven't really discussed if we're doing out, but apparently to someone coughMIKEcough we are going out because we went out on one date. hmpf! I shall deal with him later. anyways.

well, I must go, it's getting late and I'm stuffed and tired. 'night!

well, my blog is being weird and not posting with my paragraphs and smushing it all together into one. hmpf. oh well. I'll attempt to fix it later.

anywho! I LOVE KIMMY! she's the most awesomest person alive! lol, she's cool. she just shaved her head cuz she's going through chemo. :( but it's good, mi madre y yo made matching hats and we saw her today and took mucho fotos. :) yay! me gusta. I hope they turn out good, I post them here someday!

tcha!

happy holidays, all. I'm off to eat some reject cookies and get ready for *later* :P heehee.

why is no one ever on when I am, but then everyone comes on when I'm about to leave? it boggles the mind.

~Rayla

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haHA!

I'm so proud of myself. fixed anne's blog, I did. ha! :)

random note: seminary this morning was great. food, flannel pjs, a big warm quilt and sitting next to the person you love while playing with each other's hands is a great mix. mmm.... I think we layed on each others shoulder a few dozen times.... mmm. Mike, I agree with you. winter's the best time for romance....

hmmm. love is in the air. and for the best time of the year, too. mmm. I'm all warm and fuzzy just thinking about it.....

mm. now I wonder, should we start thinking/worrying about the first kiss? jk, jk. don't answer that.

changin' with the season,

~Rayla

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ha!

3 days.

nuff said, but I'm sure you don't care about that. anyways!

mmmmm. flannel pjs, huge warm quilt and giraffe pillow are in the forcast for tomorrow. mmm.

and crazy is the forecast all week....

huzzah. more like, happy crazy, and next week. FWAH!

hmm. 5 minutes from break, and I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOO boared. (to take kit's spelling.) tcha! movies sound good..... with a certain somone ya love.... hehe.

3 minutes..... gah, the last bit is always the longest, isn't it? just like waiting for answers, end of a super long piece of music, the end of someone's blog.... like mine..... ha!

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I just up-ed my template. look good, yay? nay? feedback, por favor!!

we're on break now. finally! ...but some how, no one's on... how strange. hmm.

Mike, let me know when you're free so we can do some serious work on the story. thankee!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! ... just thought I'd throw that out there. :)

RANTIFY!

Bad:

• curse you dominant, half diminished and fully diminished vii chords. (if I could swear,) DANG YOU!
• meh. mike's selling his child on ebay (curse you for that too). MURDERER! ...
• computer's way too slow. (curse it! again.)
• almost failing US history. (cursed homework.)
• history project due tuesday/wednesday
• chem assessment on wednesday (possibly? it might even be tuesday. GAH!)
• music theory test on tuesday/wednesday
• dang, I missed all those curse whatever's. CURSEIT! BAH!

If there's bad things, I have to even out with the good:

• date in 6 days.
• not failing chem! (yet?)
• dance on the 29th.
• new year's eve, and I have someone to kiss this year. jk.
• mistletoe. wait, that *could be* bad if mike brings some saturday. I'll keep everyone updated on that.

yeah, right? it's the lovely life for me, I think my aunt is coming! Meh, I think that every time the bad outweighs to good.

meh. and stuart wants me to be the dominant one and decide. HA! I made that mistake once, I refuse to do it again. I WILL NOT BE THE CAUSE AGAIN. I WILL NOT HAVE THEM DO SOMETHING THEY REALLY DON'T WANT TO. I WILL NOT BE THE ONE WHO DECIDES, THEN IS RAISED UP IN MY OWN WORLD OF IT AND THEN BE LET DOWN BE REALITY. I WON'T BE THE ONE TO WRITE IT IN STONE!

I will not, I just can't. I won't, I just... couldn't... handle that again...

I just... can't....