150!

I live on blogger! who cares!

I've been told to keep my comment box open every once in a while, but when I do, no one comments. what's the point? perhaps I should keep it closed, if no one's going to say anything. oh well, this stupid blog is turning too much into a diary blog, anyway. meh, this is more for my own amusement anyway. it doesn't matter.

nothing matters! *emo*

=D

I'm off to play isketch, to amuse myself because I'm currently a tad bit bored.

happy memorial day!

now back to business.

my world grew over the weekend. actually, it's been getting bigger and bigger all the time. I mean, at this time last year it was "oswegoland area." now it's "oswegoland & naperville & ottawa."

I now know that there is life out there. taking the first road trip by myself really showed that to me. sure, and hour may not seem like a very long road trip, but when you're by yourself? you start making decisions on your own. you start seeing the big picture. you start seeing things in your own way. you feel like an adult.

I know I did.

once I got to ottawa, I met people. I saw my cousin Kasey, of course, but then I met the rest of her family. I met people at her church (not to mention the date). some people knew me from somewhere already, but I didn't know who they were. I figured out later that they had seen me at YW camp, waltzing around as my crazy self as I always am whenever boys are out of the question. (lol; I'm the hyper one at camp. it's my rep.)

after I drove home by myself, I arrived to an empty house. I remember thinking to myself, so this is what it's like to be grown up. making decisions on your own, coming home and doing what you'd like.

then I realized how much I've grown through out my entire life. how much I've grown because of my friends. how much my testimony of the gospel and Christ has grown. how much better a person I am now than I ever was. how much more I understand now because I'm here, and not in sheltered little Lisle.

in light of that, I must take this time to thank you all. for helping me become the person I was always meant to be. for helping me uncover my light. for showing me what I am. for showing me what I have yet to do and accomplish.

so thank you.

bunnies can't play wii.

http://www.worthplaying.com/article.php?sid=8249

I have the belief that I'm obsessed. but that's okay. I'll bet I'm the only person in the world who is. about teensies, anyway.

yes, this post is being devoted to the magical blue fairy-type creatures with beady little eyes and elongated faces that captivated my imagination so long ago. you know you like reading about them. you know you love my icon, too! uh huh, denial. don't get me wrong, Rayman rocks too.

oh yeah. my kind of hottie. the limbless wonder, wot! ow, ow! -^.^-

and look at that, I incorporated teensies in the process. haha!

I rock.

all hail teensies! long live the teensie queen!
~Rayla

brace yourselves!

random bits of info no one will care about! ready?...

band concert tonite! we sounded good in liturgical dances, for once. straight through, we don't suck! we had so much energy running it today, I got the chills. hoo, baby!

going on a blind-double date with my cousin. okay, this is going to take a story.

so, last nite, I get a call from Kasey (my cousin) about 8:45. We do the typical greeting and whatnot, and then she comes out and asks me if I can go on a double with her! I'm like "uh, I don't have a boyfriend..." and then she goes off to say that it's okay because she already has one for me! She tells me that this family moved into their ward about two weeks ago, and this 16 year-old in the family asked her out on a date. his brother (who's 19!!) said that he'd go on the double, and Kasey volunteered me to go with them! I don't know who this guy, or what his name is for that fact, hence my phrase "blind-double." crazy, huh. oh, and this guy's going on a mission in a week in a half. madness....

bah!

english paper due next tuesday. hoping to have it done friday to get extra credit. =)

oh, and I've decided that I need to go home and play Rayman 2 for my web deisgn class. I need screenshots of the game; there aren't nearly enough pictures of Teensies on google. which reminds me...

schwa. have fun with that, me dearies. I'm off to finish what's left of school. and write more of the story. which also reminds me, Mike, we need to talk about plot. I'm thinking we'll be able to work more when school lets out, but don't let me forget. =)

all hail teensies! long live the teensie queen!
~Rayla

what am I to you // what are you to me...

// are we getting better // or did we used to be

definitely how I feel right about now. oh well. such is life. we live, learn, laugh, fall, get up, and keep going.

but man, is it hard to get up once you've fallen. especially from the roof of a skyscraper.

you take a big leap, you fall, waiting for something to catch you. but it misses, or never tries to catch you, so there you are, falling from the top of a skyscraper. and all you do, is you think to yourself, why did I jump... why did I do what I did. why did I take a chance... but it's then you realize you had a parachute all along. with the ground rapidly approaching, you pull the string, and poof! out comes a brightly coloured parachute, with every color imaginable under the sun gently carrying you to the ground. and you laugh, because the parachute is everything you ever needed all along. you didn't need anyone to catch you. only a parachute. then you land on the ground, feet first, head up tall. but then whatever it was that was supposed to catch you in the first place comes along for a second time, and you wonder to yourself, I jumped for this to catch me? and then you send it to the ditch in the side of the road, continuing on you highway of life with your brightly coloured parachute, which is what everyone really needs in this life.

a parachute. it's all we need.

it's all I need.

prufanzi

yay for word verification boxes that give you ideas for names. even if they are a little long and complicated. so now I've got 2: "Yevarina" and "Prufanzi." interesting.

celebrate the small things in life, I suppose. that's what they tell me, anyway.

I don't know about anyone else, but I'm ready for summer. now.

all hail teensies! long live the teensie queen!
~Rayla

//::eDiT::\\
"Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken."

if that ain't the truth, I dunno what is!

='(

I miss the musical already. we took the set apart and painted the floor. I almost cried. on the inside, anyway. man... and I'll never have a soundtrack that produced the same magic as listening to it from backstage. I probably never will, but I'm emotional right now, so... man, musical next year is going to be even worse. it'll be the last one ever...

ugh, not even going to think about it.

which reminds me, I need to grovel to my parents about a yearbook.

meh. off to write more of my story, eh. keep my mind off things for a while. plus, it'll help control my fictional-side of my brain. that or throw it off even more. oh, whatever.

SLEEP! peace! aaah...

BEHOLD!

I am the Teensie Queen. Marvel. Bow to my superiority of these creatures.

=P

Anne, I think you're beating me on this number-of-posts thing. I'm at 144 now. not that it's a race or anything. =D

last nite of the musical tonite.... it's been going by way too fast. I mean, it seems like only yesterday that we were learning "Six Months" or "Shoeless Joe" in the Choir room. Or learning the "Shoeless Joe" dance in the Band room... at this rate, I'll be in college tomorrow.

...

*oO* no, scary thought, AAH! I don't want to leave! I don't want the seniors that have established so much in our school to leave! I don't want anything to change!

. . .but alas, I think it is change that makes us who we are. but I think that if you're really close to someone who's leaving, you will stay in touch with them. no matter how far away they are.

so, in light of that; bring it on, future. bring it. I'm ready for you.

all hail teensies! long live the teensie queen!
~Rayla

//::eDiT::\\
My family just left. so now I'm home alone for the next day and a half! minus the whole going-over-to-Kits-so-I-don't-burn-the-house-down part.

yay for moving icons....

but other than that, life is going extremely well. =]

"God be with you 'til we meet again" is an awesome hymn. we sang it at seminary for our last day together and I cried. not a sad crying, but a happy crying, because of all the people I met and my testimony that grew tenfold over the year... this year especially, seminary has given me the strength to do everything that I have ever needed to. and man oh man, do I love everyone in that class or what. oh man.... we watched a DVD put together of all our pictures that we took over the year, and one of them was Stuart laying on my shoulder; to which I sighed and said "that was a long time ago." he was sitting next to me then, and he agreed. [[oh, and he's coming to our show tonite. he says we better do good, since Nequa did it a few years ago and he's going to be comparing us with them. I laughed and told him it was going to be no problem in that aspect. we better kick butt, or else I'm not going to be happy!!!]]

the musical went well last nite, I think. yes, there were some technical things we could've brushed up on (stupid techies stage left!), but otherwise I think it went really well. the audience loved it, that's for sure. the mental image of Leeb wearing Lola's hat will be engraved in my memory FOREVER! MWAHAHA! ... and that's why I'm going to be a dictator when I grow up. =} lol.

dumb english.... meh.

goodnite! I'm going to finish school, go home, practice, take a nap, go to play, come home, sleep. oh, and eat somewhere in there. =P I'm dead during the next few days.... don't worry. =D I'll only be sleep deprived...

big seminary breakfast tomorrow! I hope I'm alive enough for it.

bye!

awesomeness

http://www.rayman-fanpage.de/rayman2/ray2_freunde/teensie.gif

haha, I now have a moving icon. yay, I rock. =D I am a nerd, and IAMSOPROUDOFIT! oh yeha. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Teensies)

for ryan: saxophones and bassoons kick @$$! booty, yeah!

PHANTOM OF THE OPERA IS COMING TO CHICAGO THIS OCTOBER... it's crazy, it's only going to be here for 8 weeks (Wednesday, October 31 through Saturday, January 5, 2008). that's not long enough! I'd never get to go see it! D= although, a site says that a group of 20+ people can get tickets, but individual tickets don't go on sale until june... the last time it was here, it was in 2004, but that was for six weeks. no wonder we hadn't heard about it. before that it was 1998, and before that, 1993! it's about time they come back. AGH.... here's a site, I recommend you read all the stuff it's done. nifty.... (http://www.theatreinchicago.com/news.php?articleID=211)

ugh, I have to tell my mum! and I have to get a group of 20+ people, so we can get seats! spread the word, pick a date! we'll plan for it! schwa! ...I want to see it, oh so badly.

happy mother's day!

now for the good stuff. =]

** somehow I miss-counted (or I just deleted a post), so THIS is actual post 140. my bad! **

Alright, so read this:

lightning pulses through your veins
fire throbs upon your skin
and while water splashes on your cheeks
the growth of a seed sprouts from within your chest

pretty cool, right? okay, so now add in the fact that it was written in my dream journal, without a date, in the middle of blank pages. my writing and everything.

...

cool still?

yeah, creepy, that's what I thought too. of course, I did a scan over all of the other pages (and I do mean all of them) and didn't find anything else, but that got me to thinking: does that mean I sleepwrite? is that even possible? how did this random thing in the middle of my journal just come to be there?

it's madness, I tell you. a message, no doubt. what do ya'll make of it?

140, haha!

we've got a Wii, we've got a Wii!

=]]

...and RAYMAN 4 TO GO WITH IT!

<3

@};~

oh! oh...

brace yourselves.

I'm beginning to understand the phrase "two-faced". More of the literal sense than metaphorical.

me encanta mis amigos. 'nuff said, if I could spell.

drama is going well. could be better, could be worse. can't complain.

rawr, we had double-stuffed oreos and chocolate milk from Oberweis in seminary this morning. rich, thick, chocolatey goodness. mm, mmmm! and I can't wait until the 18th! not only is it the last day of seminary, but it's supposedly tradition to have a BIG PANCAKE BREAKFAST! with pancakes and french toast and waffles and eggs and bacon and sausage and oh! anything else you can think of for breakfast. yummy yummy! and I get to eat it with my favorite people in the world. :3 mormons. oh yeah. [those who know what I mean will know exactly what I mean.] lol. anybody want to come? I won't just bring food straight from it; that'd make me a magnet for all the wrong reasons. maybe I'll bring a box of doughnuts instead on some random day... anyone object to that?

and I've really got nothing else. I should take some pictures and post them up here.... I wish I had a really good camera that would take good pictures of the sky. and the stars. and most anything else I see. But those cameras are muy expensivo. oh well! maybe in another lifetime. :D oh, and I really wish that I had a digital camera, too.

OOOH! I JUST REMEMBERED! kit told me not to say anything, but my parents don't come on here. =]] so when kit was at my house, my mom was asking her all these questions about the WII. for some reason I left the room, when my mother told Kit that they had gotten a WII for my birthday, even though it will be for "all of us". I think it rocks. I'm so excited! I wish my birthday would come faster.

1. WII
2. summer
3. partay

huh-freakin-zah.

those were the good! (dum, da dum, da dum) old! (dum, da dum, da dum) daaaays!

(man, our show is going to kick @$$. boo yah!)

josephine wall

Doorway to the Stars

If you close your eyes and release your imagination all things are possible. A simple cabinet door can be a portal to another world. A world where the sky filled with planets looks very different from the one we know. A world where mighty pyramids channelling energy to receptive minds, sit quite comfortably alongside fairy castles - a world where you will find wonder and tranquillity. Stay a while and dip your feet in the river of peace. You will feel refreshed.

http://www.josephinewall.co.uk/

MWAHAHA!

meehehe. the neighbor's cat killed TWO rabbits before my eyes... meehehe. (this must be why everyone thinks I'm going to be a dictator when I grow up.)

die, rabbit, die. don't go off and make any more rabbits. DIE!

... :D I'm not crazy. I swear.

I'll let you bombard me with comments on how I'm such a horrible person because I hate rabbits now.

:D eeeee.

Chocolate

This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer

Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words

What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time

life loves me! so far. :D

Life is deciding to go along with me, for a while. lets see, good things that happened so far! (and this is only today...)

1. No seminary this morning! extra hour of sleep.
2. Found out upon arriving to school today that some teacher around the school (who coached WV and traveled the world doing this) is coaching COLORGUARD NEXT YEAR! huzzah! now I won't have to deal with it. THANK... GOODNESS! AND I won't have to worry about screwing over the next squad. :D
3. So many people love me. <3> and so many people tell me. :D the secret to life is just being happy! and outgoing! yeeaaah, baby! :)

well, that's all the good stuff for now.... going to the mall later today with mi hermano to window shop. and get stuff. probably five things each to even out what we got for our b-days. :D hehehe, and Anne can't stop us! of course, then Kit reminds me at lunch that I want to do 2 other things at the same time.... D: oh well. spiderman and Tia will have to wait, I suppose. for two more weeks at that.

brrr-ness, it's cold in here. stupid coldness. in May, no less. :'( no warmth! tcha.

well, I'll be seeing ya. I need to figure out what I need to for my "catcher in the rye" project. I've got an idea, but I think it'll suck. anyone want to read it after I turn it in? :D

have a good day, dearies!

//:: EDIT ::\\
http://ldsdance.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album02&page=10
oh yah! don't I look so preety?

because big buildings are made to be jumped from

Well, despite the plague of "madness with feelings" around here, here's a general plus:

I'VE GOT 34 HITS ON MY STORY!

....but no reviews. D: very sad. someday, my fiends! SOMEDAY! .... I mean, "friends." haha, lol.

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/30562067/?q=pottermon&qh=boost%3Apopular+age_sigma%3A24h+age_scale%3A5

oh yes. a wonderful way to lighten the mood. especially after today.

tried to change the world. didn't work. no big deal. I'm alive after jumping off the top of the Sears Tower, and I forgot the parachute. of course, I hadn't realized I had jumped until I hit the pavement a thousand feet below, but meh.

anyways. Damn Yankees! is coming along nicely, I think. I'm pleased. Stuart's crazy-mad that we "figured in" the pit onto the stage. ("It's not supposed to be that way! it's WRONG!" I think he's just jealous that we can come up with a creative way to figure them in.) I'm hoping he'll come see it, just so we can prove to him that OEHS can be as good as Nequa or Wabounsie. I think he's in denial about it. He's still sure that we couldn't have done Macbeth very well, but... you just had to see it, I guess. did anyone record it? maybe we can tie him to a chair and make him watch it.

um, yeah. necessito hugs. por favor.