it's when the light and the company disappear that we become everything we are, and everything we don't want to be.

I don't want to be alone...

he says this stuff every year about this time, usually a few weeks before I go home for summer.

sure, he says he misses me, but it's not there. he doesn't mean it as much as he thinks.

and brotha friend, you better get it through to you that I'm not comin' home for you.

I'm comin' home for my family. my blood. after that, I've got nothin' for me there.

I used to.

but it's just part of an old shell of who I used to be.

"shot in the dark!"

yeah.

it was worth it, cos you didn't even dodge.

are you missing something? cos I think you are.

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song

You can't believe it

You were always singing along

It was so easy and the words so sweet

You can't remember

You try to feel the beat

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet, eet, eet, eet

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet, eet, eet, eet

You spent half of your life trying to fall behind

You're using your headphones to drown out your mind

It was so easy, and the words so sweet

You can't remember

You try to move your feet

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet, eet, eet, eet

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet, eet, eet, eet

Someone's deciding whether or not to steal

He opens the window just to feel the chill

He hears that outside a small boy just started to cry

'Cause it's his turn but his brother won't let him try

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song

You can't believe it

You were always singing along

It was so easy and the words so sweet

You can't remember

You try to move your feet

It was so easy and the words so sweet

You can't remember, you try to feel the beat....

I'm curbing the fantasies...

or desperately trying to.

hard day, the endorphin from all the exercise is wearing off.

--

in other news, Hawks win in overtime :)

keeps me happy enough.

I am SO close to giving up on you.

...

actually, scratch that. I already have.

peace out, brotha.

This spells disaster!! D:

for my GPA, anyway.

I fail.

I've decided I really hate gym leaders.

(in pokemon. duh.)

they're just douchebags, no matter how you look at it D:

... except for Wattson. I liek him.

and in midst of all the tragedies and uncertainties,

people can all still celebrate in unison when someone gets engaged.

cuteness. :3

ah, what pain.

I feel like I've been abandoned.

or that I've been left for dead.

is there any love left for me?

I think I'm in love with him.

but I shouldn't be.

Dude.

Did anyone else know it was possible for an *egg* to get Pokerus in the Pokemon games?

It's news to me, but it's hilarious at the same time XD

holy SNAPSKIS I *just* got tired.

all from playing ultimate with my ward for FHE and watching the Blackhawks game and getting riled up about it, I'm sure XD

good stuff! but, tiredddd.

sleep! and then dinner date across the continent tomorrow!

but, mostly sleep.

p.s. Happy birthday, Mom :)