peerpressurebebad

WELL. I feel funny, not blogging for a week. tff. I figure I'm going to be browsing around enough, I might as well make an effort to post sometimes. *shrugs* ah well.

So earlier this week/month/year (who knows) I realized how young I still am. Yes, I realize it was only a week ago I had my "mature" moment where I realized that I have grown, that I have some much bigger things to worry about, and that I have to stop thinking about the past and think about the future. Cuz really, if you dwell in the past, what is there to do? It's not like you can change anything. Nothing about the past than learning from it. That's what I say. Anyways, then I realized today from our motivational speaker person that I have sooooo much more of life left to live. I mean, it's not like I had no idea, I've just been reminded. ya know? yeah. And then me & stuart had this convo the other day about how we're still only 16 and technically children (as much as we hate hearing it) and we've got a long ways before we start thinking serious. (probably why we're not going out yet. that and the fact that we've both been hurt drastically before we met. ask me about it sometime, I'll explain further.) eh. made me think that I wanted to grow up too fast too soon. I've got another year and a half of high school. I'll slow down. maybe when it's too late, but I'll slow down. if you ask me, life begins to speed up at 12 and doesn't slow down until yer dead. just my simple-minded opinon, eh.

haha, I just made a smart comment! my mother was talking to my brother about how he needs to learn to do his homework ALL THE TIME no matter how bad it sucks. (she didn't quite use that language, BUT you get the point.) and then she brought up that I learned that lesson and I agreed. then she wondered why we had such a problem with it. then I said "y'know, I think everyone goes through a stage like that, but it's only the smart people that learn from it and do something about it." haHA! what now. unfortunatly, I am in the middle of my own statement. oO

whatelse, whatelse. oh, a week and 3 days, if anyone cares. which I'm sure they don't and have no idea what I'm talking about, but I'M excited. so there. neah. :P

so sunday night stuart calls me. (somehow the first extensive call on his part. oO) nothing big, I suppose. talked about some random stuff and then he's like "I found a book!" I'm not surprised, I've heard from other families (who've been in the area forever) that his family is SUPER SMART. good for the kids, it'll be. lol, anyways! so I ask what it is, and he's like "the legend of the candy cane!" so I'm like WTH? so he starts reading it, but he had to leave in the middle of it. I guess there was a little village and a guy comes and starts building a store. No one knows who he is or what he's doing, and no one offers help, so they just watch. then a little girl gets too curious and asks him if he needs help. the man says yes and then stuart had to go. (>:O) he said he would call me back later in the week, but it's prism week, which means next week/sunday. (*~* prism = equilavent to crystals @ OHS *~*)

Anyways. I think I've made this long enough for a week update. don't you?

~Rayla

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~*~

You take a lot of chances with your feelings
No one really knows what you feel
Fixing is the only way you're dealin'
You turn your pretty head and think it's real
Oh, you
You take it so slowly
And your eyes look so lonely
But it's only when you think about me

~*~

Maybe you want her
Maybe you need her
Maybe you had her
Maybe you lost her to another
To another