every once in a while, I get this strange fear that people put up a front of liking me when they actually hate me.

it doesn't make sense, but this only happens once in a while.

but I've seen it enough in others to wonder about it.


and for the record, I'd really just prefer somebody to just come up and say they didn't wanna be friends if they don't want to. I think I'd survive.



it makes me want to try my hand at more sincerity and gratitude. it would definitely be interesting to see what I would say instead.