give a nice, big, long, happy sigh for weekends

me: fine. I see how it is.
me: I wish I had never met you!
him: No you don't.
me: you're right.
me: but you're not supposed to know that.

Life is getting more and more hectic by the hour. meh. My private lesson teacher decided to put me in a bassoon trio (sweet!) and one of those rehersals was this morning. we sound goooood. and we've only had the music for about a week. :) good stuff. which reminds me, S&E is in two weeks from today. I'm so ready, I could do it tomorrow. lol not really. I'd need to practice a bit for that. but yeah. ugh. I think I need to take a shower now and sleep. or, sleep now and shower in the morning. can I last that long? I'm gross. but like you needed to know that. :)

ya wanna know what sucks? when you get to know a person of the other gender really well, and then you find out that either (a) they are in a relationship already, (b) they can't possibly date you for who knows what kind of a reason, or (c) they just never will like you like that. I think that's the worst.

no, I lied. I know what's worse:

being the proudest person on the planet while watching your friends do what they do best from behind a screen.

HP craziness once again

http://www.the-leaky-cauldron.org/indextt.php?page=static/widgets/index

neato stuff. for all you harry potter people out there who need a reminder on how long until july. :D

WOW,YAY,HOO-HA,andFWAH

tcha, so you know how sometimes emails are slow at getting to your inbox? well, I just got an email from 2003!!! it took that email 4 years to show up at my inbox. :D only to be sent to spam. so there, spam! you take forever to get to MY inbox and I'll just delete you without a second thought. ooh, speaking of thoughts... OO I need to update my fictionpress. whoops! I'll go do that now. multi-task, wot.

AUDITION IS OVER!!! YAY! O-V-E-R!!! and I did much better than I ever practiced. :D probably cuz I did it 20 beats slower than normal, or maybe because I WAS BLESSED! thank God. oh yes, praise. :3

hmm, so no school today, but still orchestra & lessons tonite. BLEAEH. meh. I still dunno what I'm gonna do about the practices for MB and CB for Florida conflicting with orch... raaaah. I guess I'll just shoot leeb an email. or maybe I'll just shoot him. :D KIDDING. I wouldn't touch a gun, you know it.

him: i feel sick
me: aw. I thought I told you to stop drinking. you know that these hangovers of yours keep getting worse.
him: o.O

OH! YEAH! i JUST REMEMBERED! I decided that I will do the musical, and I'll see what part I got before deciding if I'm skipping out on mi tio's wedding or not. :D rr, we will see how that works.

anyways...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ....

err, well, it's the 100th post today. woot?

on a good note, I got a pink carnation in school today. I never get flowers from anyone. heck, I don't even like Valentine's day. but I got a flower anyway. SADLY, they didn't write their name. DARNIT! makes me a little sad. I so want to know! :*( oh well. maybe someday. unless, someone has any clues for me...? I'll leave the comment box open for that, though I doubt I will get any. drat.

CHURCH DANCE SATURDAY. *yissss....* much excited. but I promise I won't go dramatic. not like last time. oh, and how's this for a theme? black&white. lameo, kinda. I'm not gonna wear black&white. ok, maybe I will, but still. it better not be so bright as it was last time. ha, one time they played bohemean rapsody (so I can't spell), and everyone was singing it major loud style. at one point, they even turned off the music b/c everyone knew the words ...except me. but I know most of the words now! so there. ha! ...

anyways. there, my 100th post. leave me a comment, dearest everyone, for my "birthday". I'd sure like a comment or five.

~Rayla~

99....

"OMG, the sun is really the closest star to the Earth?"

good. heaven. tell me you're joking in the sense thatyou didn't know that. you're not? you. are. freeking. stupid. that's. down. -right. horrible.

on the other hand, it was one of the most amusing comments I've heard all day.

my eyes burn, like I have just finished weeping for my soul
stinging residue burns my nerves around my nostrils,
and burning pain drains away at my energy.
I am tired...
I am falling...
red marks line my hands,
blue veins drawn faintly in my being.
I am tired...
But life has a firm hold upon me
Let me sleep and find some peace within my dreams

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currently, I'm terrified. my uncle's remarriage might be the same weekend of the musical performances....

y'know, one time I got busy with this thing called life, and I wonder if its too late to quit

and no, I'm not talking suicide. so don't worry. :3

I'm just so tired, but my body doesn't want to sleep; my eyelids refuse to close, for a memory is imprinted on the inside. it gives me nightmares, and I can't think about anything else. I'm a prisoner to it, and I can't let it go, neither will it let me leave. I'm stuck with it, spiraling into eternal depths, only to see my flaws. and nothing else...

well, regardless of that, I miss people. mike & stu especially... good heavens, when was the last time I spent time with them one on one? spare me this misery.

otherwise, I have to "anchor" as a news broadcaster for seminary. bleh. as if I don't have enough to do? meh. I'll just read straight from the script. nobody will care.

thank goodness we didn't have orch. practice tonite. I would've died/skipped anyway.

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I'm thinking of going to apply for a job @ panera this summer. don't know what that random bit of info is going to do the rest of you, but hey.

50-44. PWNAGE.

yup. we won. they were in the lead for most of the game, though, but then in the last five minutes we caught FIRE! yup yup yup. they do well both with/out pressure, methinks. congrats, still-undefeated boys varsity!

so anyways. can't stay long, have a concert I need to be going to shortly... call time's at 12:45 and we don't even play until 4... and I can't bring my music. BLEH. not fun. (apparently last year two people's ipods and someone's cell got stolen. I was like, 'didn't you lock the door?' apparently they don't believe in it.)

oh, and I got a rude awakening yesterday from "mi novio" (for all you people who keep insisting upon calling him that). nothing big, it more of a slap in the face that I needed. :) no harm done. not that I can see, anyway. heh, it'll probably hit me in a few hours. HA! jk.

well, I must be going, like, now, so.... threedle-loo, all!

haha.

...[a supernova was] discovered by a pro-am team consiting of Berkely astronomers and Michael Schwartz, a crack amateur supernova hunter... Michael Schwartz operates dedicated search telescopes...

this was in a book I was researching in for astronomy today. no joke, I swear. I just thought it was funny.

Also, I almost ran over Stuart in the parking lot this morning. Ask me about it sometime. Oh, never mind. I'll just tell you.

We got out of seminary late so I was sitting in my car, getting ready to go (the parking lot was almost empty, and I was driving myself cuz leah had forgotten I was driving). I then pull the car in gear and slowly drive towards the street. I see somebody running towards me car so I slow down (I was already going under 15) and Stuart runs in front of my car! I stopped of course and he's just standing there with a grin on his face like a little child. I start inching towards him and he runs away to his car. To pay him back, I boxed him in his parking space so he couldn't back out without hitting me..... and then he tailgated me all the way to Nequa. :D I laughed when he drifted towards the curb when he was staring at me.

Oh, I got my paragraph problem fixed on here. did you notice? ...

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HARRY POTTER BOOK SEVEN COMES OUT JULY 21ST..... AAAAAAH! IT'S A HARRY POTTER FILLED SUMMER, PEOPLE!!